I turned 40 in August. It has been an amazing and transformative year for me. My life has changed in many unexpected and wonderful ways. I have both grown as a person and become more accepting of who I am. I feel more at home in my skin than I have ever before in my life. I continually count my blessing including the wonderful people I have in my life. I continue to strive to grow as a person by trying to make conscious ethical fulfilling choices every day. I can’t wait to see what the next year holds for me. Below are some new poems.
My Dreams of You
You come to me in my dreams both sleeping and awake
Your presence speaks of hope and second chances
You bring joy, love, and excitement
As well as pain, heartache, and disappointment
I focus trying to see you more clearly
To envision you in the flesh, in my life
To feel it the good and bad
To apply logic and reason to something that defies it.
I long to hold you in my arms
To see your smile
To hear your laugh
To show you the beauty and wonder of the world
To help you find the strength and courage to seek it even when it seems hidden or lost.
To teach you to live and love in a way that the world’s is better for you having been in it.
Then I awake or I am beckoned back to the world and you fade.
Leaving a longing so strong I ache
I want to transport you from dreams into reality even though I know doing so comes at great personal cost.
Somethings Coming
Somethings coming
I can feel it in bones
But I don’t know what it is
I have a hidden drive compelling me
To put all the pieces of my life in order
Whispering big changes are coming
I comply
Seeking to ready myself for what is to come
Although I can’t see it yet
I can feel it.
Every day draws me closer
I scurry about trying to be prepared
To meet the impending deadline
When I know not
Only soon
The Woman at the party
Your bright smile and infectious laughter draws me in
Longing fills me, to know you to be near you.
Fear and excitement are cascading through me.
Then it’s time to go … our last words? My last look?
The clock spins and time unfolds
You walk in and my heart skips a beat for at last we again meet.
Your bright smile and infectious laughter draws me in.
Longing fills me, to know you to be near you.
Fear and excitement are cascading through me.
Then time stands still, long overdue words spoken and our eyes meet.
The clocks spins and time unfolds.